today, at a time

there's something about the blue of the sky today
and the lightness of the breeze
that draws the heaviness of grief
up until it must be felt
the you shaped hole in my heart
so wide
that I cant keep hold of both sides at once
or breathe its width fully
it is a vortex today that
I have no resistance to
I am not alone
surrounded by sun and life and calm
but,
god,
I miss you with all of me
and wish you well